Previous Tuesday, we went to the krabbelgruppe after a very long gap. Your grandparents were here and I didn't find time for krabbelgruppe. When we went previous week, there were so many little ones of your age. What a sight it was to see children crawling everywhere in that small room ! I thought you will be very happy too. But alas, you cried and cried and cried. Everyone were watching you. Elder children in the group, like Josephine, came and wiped your tears. You were crying even louder when she came near you. You tried to grab her pacifier, which by default, is always in her mouth. She was so sweet, she asked her mom whether she can give her pacifier to you :) One more little one came and gave me a building block. I wondered for a moment about it and then realized that she wants that I give it to you in order to pacify you. How kind it is of all those little hearts, and how come this compassion and empathy to strangers is lost when people get older ( in most people ) !
I was thinking that you were having stranger anxiety. But, that was not the case. That evening we took you to emergency room because you were sick ! You had your first fever - more about it in my next letter :)
I took some pictures when we returned from krabbelgruppe that morning. That particular day, weather was awesome. It was on 29th September, 2015.
Enjoy the pictures, and see how tired you were. The church in the below picture is where the krabbelgruppe is held.
In krabbelgruppe, I also met a mom of a 8 month old girl. That little one was one day elder than you. She was so cute and had the most beautiful smile. But she was not crawling or sitting on her own. Her mother enquired me whether you have started to crawl, and I said yes you have and you even stand by holding on to support ( It is very hard not to be proud of one's own child's achievements ! ). She exclaimed that her little one was not doing so. I assured her that soon she will start to crawl and not all children are created equal. Every child will reach the developmental milestones at their own pace, and it doesn't mean that something is wrong. After few minutes, that lady took her little one and left. I was wondering whether she was hurt and worried ! Perhaps, I could have been a little slow to boast about you. That incident did bother me for sometime, thereafter !
You will soon be nine months old, Anisha. Time has flown by very quickly. You are saying multiple syllables from six months onwards ( like thathatha, atthaa, akka, and when crying, ammee ( hopefully that's me : ) You are very curious about all the things around you. You wouldn't sit in a place, you need to move all the time. We have kept all the things which might hurt you away from your reach. I have to keep an eye on you all the time. When you are doing something which might harm you, I have to forcefully remove you from that place. Although you are cooperative most of the time, sometimes you couldn't stand that I prevent you from doing things which gives you joy. You cry or show your discontent by the noises you make. I have to carefully think about the pros and cons, and if I find that the outcome of a particular action of yours has the possibility of harming you, I have to interfere in your business. I think, this is what will be my responsibility for many more years to come. But, once you are mature enough to understand, and gracefully accept the results of your decisions and actions, I assure you that I will let you decide and act on your own will and wish, provided, I must be confident that you wouldn't hurt yourself very badly ( your body or soul ! ). And, I really wonder whether I myself have such wisdom !
Grow happy, healthy and strong, Anisha. I hope I will have the strength and wisdom to take care of you in the best possible way. I don't know whether I am good mom, but I am doing my best with the meager knowledge I posses. I am also learning from you, everday !
Love you kuttima, stay blessed !
Amma
