Mom - Daughter :)

A picture is worth a 1000 words !

Look at our little princess :)

Keep smiling ..... always !

Amma

Friendship Etiquette

Just a thought , Anisha ! I am so fed up of people :(

When we meet , ask me how I am , how my family is - and not about the non - living things in my life ! In the same way , I do not care whether you own a palace , a costly car or a hefty bank balance. You , boasting about all this will not change the way I treat you , will not change the way I look at you . I am least bothered about your wealth and other assets.

If you are kind to me and treat me well , I will too. Even if you are not , I will be kind. That doesn't mean I am stupid - that just means I am mature enough to not stoop from my level.

Talk to me about your passion , your dreams , your aspirations , about the movie you watched last , about the place you travelled , what you learnt in life - there are so many interesting things to talk ! Timely jokes and sarcasms are most welcome ! Please do not talk to me about people and their personal life ! That really turns me off !

I will appreciate and admire you for your professional success. I will be happy to share your joy. But that doesn't mean I have to hear it repeatedly until my ear starts to bleed. I understand your need to prove your superiority. But unfortunately , that doesn't make me feel closer to you. I get bored and irritated easily by such ruthless display of superiority.

Please do not bring jealousy into our relationship ! I , being friendly to people other than you doesn't need your approval. My friends circle might include people whom you are not fond off . That doesn't mean I shouldn't move with them. Even if I move with them that doesn't mean we are talking about you in your absence , so do not get paranoid. Please have friends and allow me to have my own circle too ! We are not in a romantic relationship , after all :P

If you talk about your other friends badly to me that's a big , big red flag for me ! I will be very careful with you.

I do not help you ,  thinking ,  you will help me some other time. I do whatever I do wholeheartedly and with love. But , when I need help , I look up to you - not because I helped you , but because you are my friend ! If you find it difficult to have that minimum courtesy , you can never be my friend.

Do not make friendship a business. You do not have to reciprocate everything in the exact way I do , or stop doing something because I haven't done so. If it happens , when I look at you , I see a business man rather than a friend.

Just because we are friends , we do not have to imitate each other. We are two different personalities , our interests are different. Let us be ourselves ,  yet , happy together.

Do not use me , I am not a thing !

Friendship is a beautiful thing. It must help us grow , must support us during our weak moments and cheer us during our happy times. I don't want someone who disappears or distances themselves during my difficult times ; I don't want someone who gets jealous at the wink of an eye when I share my happiness ; and I do not want someone who constantly competes with me and tries to prove his/her superiority ! If you compete with me , compare yourself with me , I will distance myself from you , as I find it extremely uncomfortable.

I wish I could have a friend with whom I could be as comfortable as I am with myself. But as I get older , I realize , people are extremely insecure , judgemental and biased. It is very hard to make friends ( although I do have a few good ones ! ) How I wish I had a friend like me ! :)

I did have a friend like me , but ..... but....

❤
Amma

Aren't you cute ?

Suddenly this picture appeared in my FB feed today , someone liked it. Anisha , how much you have grown ! I showed you this picture and you immediately kissed it :) Love you , Nana !

❤
Amma

My heart melts seeing this picture 😘

I am grateful for ...

YOU
Your dad
Our good health
All the love I receive
Having a shelter above our head
The food we eat
The financial stability
The beautiful place we live
Another brand new day to spend with you - because we never know when we have to leave

Life is too short to live with regrets
Yet , my heart aches at times
I must remember to be grateful for what I have
And , let go of what is not mine
Many don't have what I have -
I am so grateful for everything I have

Really Anisha , I am so very grateful for everything I have

Amma

A cactus flower

Isn't it beautiful Anisha ?

When I melt

Anisha , you gave me a hug and a kiss - isn't anything sweeter than this in the entire world ?

See those flowers , aren't they beautiful ? Previous year , the same time , we took a picture with these flowers. I was kissing you and you were smiling. And this year , you kissed me - yes , nowadays you know how to express your love with a hug and kiss. But , you do so only rarely. When I ask for a kiss , most of the time , you tilt your head to the right a little and shake it side to side , meaning , no - you look so cute when you shake your head so :)

Don't you see my face and heart melt in this picture ?

Amma

Don't we look alike ? :)

We do , right ?

❤
Amma

Wide awake !

Anisha , after so long , I am wide awake in the early morning. You are sleeping peacefully beside me. It's only 3:30 AM. How I wish I could sleep ! How I wish I don't brood on thoughts which troubles me ! How I wish I could forget the pain ! It hurts , and I know what triggered it. Perhaps I should avoid the trigger all together. I just need to sleep. My mind keeps on searching for that one word , or one moment , which assures it's not all delusion - but all I find is , how deluded , hopeless and troublesome I was. Anisha , it hurts. People use tools , how stupid I was to believe otherwise !

Amma